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Why Don't I Have This Figured Out Already?

Reinvention.  Makeover.  Redesign. 

Add ‘midlife’ to any of these words and there you have the issue on the minds of most women in their midyears.  It’s certainly constantly on MY mind, I can tell you, both personally and professionally.  After all, I’m in the middle of my own midlife reinvention. 

A little over a year ago, right at my 50th birthday, I launched a web community to inspire and support women to make the most of midlife.  WomenBloom.com was my answer to the unsettling question that had been nagging me day and night for some time, “What do I want the next half of my life to look like?” 

And, I thought I was the only one stuck on this question.  Silly me.  Through the conversations with friends I had before WomenBloom, and the many conversations since with midlife women, you all have spoken. 

It is THE question we’re ALL asking in some form or other.

You know, I’m no stranger to reinvention, in fact, at 51, the last 15 years have been one transition after another.  Widowed at 36, having lived in a small East Texas town for the previous 12 years, a big change was forced on me.  With no kids, my life felt like a scary, blank slate in many ways.  And, sometimes too many options are almost as bad as none.

Making the decision to move to Austin, a town where I knew no one, I spent my 40s building a new life, trying various jobs—economic development, tech, organizational development and human resources--and getting a master’s degree in leadership and ethics.  Being a gal who likes knowing where she’s going, it all seemed worrisomely random.  At 49, I thought, WHEN do I figure this OUT already??!? 

Ha!

Note to self:  Reinvention isn’t a linear process.  Or a finite one.  Sigh.

Bad news:  I don’t have this reinvention thing all figured out.  Sorry. 

Good news:  I know what I’m passionate about and that is, helping us all learn how to find our way to our own personally meaningful answer to The Question. 
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02.14.2010
Denise Burks
Allison! I cannot wait to visit your website. I was especially inspired by your declaration that this life is not linear. No kidding!!! Women Bloom. I like it! http://www.successinthesuburbs.com/
08.01.2009
Carra Riley
Allison, Your article has inspired wonderful engagement of this community. Having just past the double nickels ,55 I like to think of myself as "evolving" into this new person, who I like a lot. I spent 30 years in sales and it took me 2 full years being off the hamster wheel to figure out who this new person was. I am happy to say that I am doing what I love and have more balance than I ever had in my first half century. Any process, such as evolution or reinvention, takes planning, time and practice so articles like yours give encouragement to all of us on this new path. We have no experience to draw from and our parents evolution was nothing like ours. Thank you for giving us a platform to share with one another.
06.02.2009
Sherri
Reinvention? I am still trying to figure out who I am or what I really want to be doing. After losing my ideal job last year thru my own errors, I have been lost. I have tried a couple of things that just haven't been the right things. If I had the education I should have had I wouldn't have lost that job. I am 51 and marred. I am surrounded by stuff and family responsibities every where I turn. I guess I can relate to the dots and lines becase I have been thru 3 marriages and grew up a military brat moving all over.I have been married to the same man and lived in the same place for 11 years now. But I constantly feel restless.My mind runs away with ideas but my body has inertia! HELP! How do get out of my rut? How do you get started when you just don't know where to start?
Hi Allison! I'm so glad to see you here! After seven years as an at-home mom, at age 42 I began to write letters when my youngest child entered half-day kindergarten. I tutored international students three evenings a week, using any canceled appointment slots to write. Then I turned my letters into a blog, then I started publishing articles in handcraft magazines... at age 47 I will graduate with an MFA in Creative Writing. Prior to this, all of my professional life involved taking care of others: college students, historic homes, all kinds of hospitality. It's been a great transition to be hospitable to myself and others, through the written word. I'm just getting started.
05.30.2009
oregondenim
I was emotionally frozen when I started college as a 39 year old freshman. Taking that chance made me strong enough to take the next step - Get rid of an abusive husband. That gave me the confidence to continue my education beyond an associates degree to a bachelors degree. Through that process I learned the importance of distance education in helping women improve their situations and I decided to dedicate my new career to increasing distance education options through the developing of online programming for at-risk adults. That goal encouraged me to earn my MBA and a masters degree in distance education management. Each step in my transformation has been exciting and filled with unexpected emotional gifts. I'm now transforming my body. I started out 100+ pounds overweight and have lost 25. Each of my previous successes tells me I have the strength and stamina to make this...and any future goals happen. My Christmas present to me this year - a healthy body. WooHoo!
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