Sometimes I am happy and singing aloud with my iPod. Other times I find myself deep in despair. I have had days when I cannot wait for my husband to leave for work so I can crawl back into bed and sleep, days when I am glued to the computer searching endlessly for a position to apply for.
Today is a day of contemplation. Where do I go from here? I am sitting outside because it is a beautiful spring day in the middle of winter. I am trying to concentrate on the sound of the wind through the trees and appreciate the beauty that surrounds me. I count my blessings in this life and tell myself good things come to those who wait, as tears flood my eyes.