Then the day arrives. As I wave my final goodbye, tears stream down my face. I run to the car and drive away, and it goes against every fiber in my being to leave her behind. I wonder how we mothers do it.
But in my mind’s eye, I see my "little" girl standing in line with a suitcase full of faith. Not a small one, but a huge one. Next to her stands her dad, who has the honor of flying with her on the first leg of this amazing journey. I know everything will work out. It always does. But as a mother it’s a challenge to let a child go out into the world of the unknown.
Back home, before I go to sleep, I climb the stairs to her pink room. I must admit that it takes some courage to face my pain. Her door is wide open, and the room looks like a hurricane has paid a visit to our attic. Clothes are strewn everywhere, the bed is a mess — indeed, nothing has changed. It looks as though she’ll be coming home tonight. But in the doorway I find one black Cinderella mule from her prom — forlorn and forgotten in her hasty packing. How could it be more symbolic? Is this a sign that she hasn’t completely landed on the other side? Is one foot still here in this world she just left?
I pick up the mule and put it on the mantel above the fireplace. My mind drifts back in time. Oh, how I loved her first footsteps in her golden sandals, and all her steps in all the different shoes that came after. I close my eyes and tell the Universe, "Now it’s your turn. You take care of her.” I promise myself I’ll make sure our son who flies to Amsterdam next week takes that mule to our daughter so she’ll fully land and so she has the right shoes to dance in until the morning comes.
And as I watch the sunrise this morning, I surrender.
Using her own life as living proof that extraordinary choices lead to an extraordinary life, Saskia Röell expertly helps others do the same. She's a Soul Purpose Coach, radio host, bestselling author, and co-author with Jack Canfield, Stephen Covey and Deepak Chopra. As an international speaker, clairvoyant healer and mother of five, Saskia empowers you to move out of your comfort zone, break through your fears, and go after your heart’s desires. Get access to her free "Secret Soul Map to Your Dreams" Program here: http://www.YourSoulGuidance.com.