5 Reasons I Won't Die the Way My Mother Did

After witnessing her mother's decline, a daughter pledges to do it differently

by Erica Manfred • Next Avenue
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When a parent dies, it's common for surviving children to have a raft of regrets, from not spending more time with Dad to not telling Mom you loved her to failing to do more for them in their final years. Today there's often one other regret in the mix — not protecting a parent from invasive end-of-life interventions.

(MORE: Is Extending Our Parents' Lives Heroic or Cruel?)

Few of us die in our own beds now. Modern medicine keeps many of us living longer, and then some of us die by inches, in an ICU or on a ventilator, sedated or in excruciating pain, while others fade slowly with Alzheimer’s disease or other dementias. When my mother died 15 years ago, after much unnecessary suffering, I determined to keep her fate from becoming mine.
 
Mom was an extremely healthy and active woman who, until age 85, had few medical problems besides arthritis. In her mid-80s she displayed some memory loss, though nothing that inhibited her lifestyle. I suspected she was developing Alzheimer’s, as her brother had, but that she had many active years left. She also had a heart valve that needed replacing or she'd face serious restrictions of her daily activities, along with an increased likelihood of a heart attack.

She wanted the surgery, and it was a success. But then she had an allergic, near-fatal reaction to the valve, after which she went rapidly downhill cognitively and became unable to take care of herself and severely depressed. Two years later, when her kidneys failed, her doctor suggested dialysis, which would have gone against her living will specifying no further invasive treatments. I arrived at her Florida home just in time to refuse the dialysis. She died peacefully at home, under hospice care, two weeks later. We had spoken about her wishes, and I knew that’s what she wanted.
 
After my mom passed away, I realized that I had to begin to make hard decisions about my own death, when I was still relatively young and healthy, to avoid an equally drawn-out end. Jane Brody, a New York Times health columnist and author of Jane Brody's Guide to the Great Beyond: A Practical Primer to Help You and Your Loved Ones Prepare Medically, Legally, and Emotionally for the End of Life, helped me craft these five steps, designed to increase one's chances of a dignified death (although there are, of course, no guarantees):

  1. I will refuse major surgery, especially cardiac surgery, after 80. People in their 80s who have major surgeries, or spend time in ICUs, commonly suffer cognitive decline afterward, even if they don’t have dementia to begin with, according to multiple studies. A heart attack is an easy way to go. Progressive mental decline is not.
  2. I will appoint a health-care proxy whom I know will carry out my wishes. I have an adopted daughter who is still a teen, and an older former foster daughter who has pledged to care for me in my old age, but has also told me she could never "pull the plug." My friend Wendy, younger than I, and medically educated, is no wimp, and so she's my proxy. Brody emphasizes that anyone you appoint to the role must, first, not be easily intimidated by doctors. She cites the experience of a friend whose father was incapacitated by a stroke. When the man's doctor wanted to insert a feeding tube, her friend refused, but the doctor insisted, saying, "I don’t let my patients starve." Four years later, the woman’s father remains alive in a vegetative state, and his medical expenses have decimated his only child's finances, as well as his grandchildren's. If I'm ever in that situation, I know that Wendy would stand up to that doctor for me.

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First Published Wed, 2012-10-03 11:52

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