As I stood at church on Sunday morning singing “Amazing Grace,” I had a peace I had not felt in a long time. I wasn’t sure if it came from knowing my 16-year-old daughter was now in a safe place where she could get the help she so desperately needed OR because I could finally sleep through the night without worrying she would run away again…”escaping” to get to her drugs. Four days earlier I had admitted Brittany to a long-term residential drug rehab facility, ending two years of chaos and insanity in my life. I finally came to the realization that my daughter was an addict and needed more help than I could give her.
Since the rehab facility kept clients for at least a year, I had time on my hands…something I had never experienced since my divorce at 40. Now 48 and looking for something to fill my nights/weekends, I focused on MY dreams. Like many women, I had been a caretaker to my family for so long and sadly realized I had stopped dreaming. My ONLY dream, while an honorable one, was to raise two well-adjusted, well-educated daughters; and I felt like a failure.
After a series of serendipitous acts, I felt led to sell my incredible fudge I had given away for years as gifts. I spent months researching, taste-testing, and building my website. In September of 2008, I launched what is now known as Walden Farms Toffee & Fudge. In Oct 2009 I was laid off from my telecom job after 12 years, affording me the opportunity to work my business full-time. The business is growing, and Brittany has been sober almost three years. I donate a portion of my proceeds to a local youth substance-abuse program.
Reinvention? Maybe. But I just call it opportunity!