A friend who had survived breast cancer started sending me spiritual e-mails on how I’d now joined the Sisterhood of Cancer. I didn’t want to be in the Sisterhood. I wanted out of the Sisterhood. Another friend informed me that “the underlying emotional causes of cancer are usually unexpressed anger and unresolved resentment.” Now I was pissed! I put that friendship on hold.
But so many people volunteered to visit during chemo that I was afraid I might need to schedule additional sessions. And everyone I’d ever met wanted to come watch while I got my head shaved. What was with that? Only Randy got the honor. Afterward, I sent a photo of my new shiny pate to my sister in Chicago, who wrote back: You’ve had worse hairstyles.
I dubbed myself Sinéad O’Cancer. A big step toward my new self-image as a cancer patient.
Were there perks to being Linda Who Has Cancer? Yes. Homemade soups and flowers from friends. E-mails now signed love. People kept telling me I have a nicely shaped head, an asset I never knew I had. Or needed. And every morning Randy brought me coffee in bed. True, it had Miralax in it, but I was touched.
After infusions two and three, my complexion looked great. A PET scan technician informed me I have extra-long, skinny lungs. I now knew my lungs would look good in jeans. I also learned my scan was clean. No green glowing critters! I was ready to graduate to radiation and a free suntan.
Weeks later, my energy started coming back. I felt healthy. I felt like me. I’d be bald longer than I’d be in treatment. But a few days after getting the news about my clean scan, I spotted a donation card for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society at the grocery store. I slipped in a quarter, thinking, My society! And on my way out, I passed a woman with no visible hair, wearing a turban. I smiled at her. We were Sisters.
LINDA YELLIN’s new novel, What Nora Knew (Simon & Schuster), pays tribute to Nora Ephron.
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