Here it is! I always believed in the happily ever after. The prince charming in my life will be with me forever. That there was only one person meant for me and I had found him. Well, he didn’t feel the same way. After being married for 25 years, my husband tells me he is no longer in love with me. He has been seeing another woman. He does not want a divorce, he cares for me too much, he loves me, but he’s not in love.
How do I feel? Well, I have gone from: angry, crazy, devastated, lost, feeling unbearable pain, to missing him terribly, to thinking I could never forgive him, and back to feeling I can’t live without him.
I go day to day feeling numb, trying to find something that will make me feel happy again, but it doesn’t seem to happen. He calls me everyday or every other day. He says he needs to talk to me. I can’t move on. I’m stuck in limbo. I see him every week when he stops by to see our son, even though he doesn’t have to stop by the house, because our son is 22 years old. He can meet him somewhere else.
I’m 52 years old, I can’t think of starting a new relationship with another man. I feel betrayed and a failure.
I don’t see the light at the end of the rainbow, but I go on. My son needs me, and that’s reason enough.