I have survivalist tendencies. I've always had the feeling the apocalypse was just around the corner, for as long as I can remember. A sense of impending doom? Hm...not quite, at least not all of the time. There were spells of that, but they came later in the game. It wasn't really a pessimistic view, it made me live my life to the fullest, even as a young girl. I work seriously in regional theatre. If I told you my real name you could google me and find links to my resume, but you've probably not heard of me. Yet. My stars say that I won't peak until close to retirement age, which is alright with me. By the time I am a household name I will have lived at least another lifetime. I'll still be young. Especially if I continue to eat and live like I do now. I plan to. But I'll be so much wiser. I hope life is just unkind enough. It's been pretty mean thus far. I wouldn't turn back the tides for anything, but I'd at least ask a few years of respite from the brutality. Wow. I sound like a novel about Soviet Russia. It's not so bad in my corner. I am lucky to have a well-paying job in the arts in this climate, and I have more Love than I've ever known. I've seen a lot of loss, instability, and other things that are common in post-modern life. But I'm pretty happy these days. Read on for more self-examination.