Should I talk about how I used to be or how I am now? Well, I'll just sum up. I'm divorced-was married 15 years to a man I thought was my soul mate. Something happened to him along the way, though. He just changed. I know that sounds cliche but after 6, 7 years he retired from his cop job, with the intention of starting/growing businesses. At the time I left corporate and we had opened a house cleaning/landscaping biz. Well, he worked for a while, but then just slowed down, like a wind up clock....wound down! LOL bottom line is he is one of these guys that says I'll take care of it. And never does...Won't even mention the condition of the house repairs he never took care of. Anyway, that was my old life. Was divorced and believe or not, had an auto accident 10 days after the divorce was finalized. Wow. 10 whole days of peace and quiet. I am still recovering. Have severe nerve damage, severe headaches, constant pain, and on and on and on. Have had 1 back surgery so far, 1 set of injections in the back of my head for the headaches-occipital nerve block, and pills for this and pills for that. Good thing I can't walk fast. Might here the pills jiggling around inside. How ironic. I hate taking meds. Thru it all I try to keep a sense of humor, some might find it bizarre, I guess. It's my way of handling it. You see, my life just changed in a second. Literally. I was an active, hardworking woman, working 5 days corporate, and weekends working my biz-was pretty successful with the biz, I think. Was finally in shape. Never really took care of myself, but then I started walking one day few years back, got in shape and then some. Was walking 5 miles a day- everyday. Thru heat, rain, snow. Just like the postal workers. God, I felt great! The stress relief alone!!!! Well, since my accident, I am pretty much homebound, can't walk even a full block, and my days are just all the same, except when I see or talk to my psych doc. Feel like my life just stopped that day, 2 years ago. like I am in a holding pattern.....<br />
I have gone through repeated bouts of Physical Therapy which loosens me up a bit. It always helps. I know people who cringe at the thought of PT. I welcome it! I have gone through repeated bouts of epidural injections; in my spine, into my occipital nerves in the back of my head. into many muscles in my neck, my shoulders, my back, my hip, my leg, etc. It's hard to keep track of the numbers, the sites, the pain, the minor relief.