After several months of "tweaking" my medicines, I began to feel better and needed less sleep. That's when I looked in a mirror. My face and body were puffy. Wrinkles and lines were evident around my eyes and lips. My skin was dry and flaking. My eyebrows had disappeared, and my eyelashes were sparse. My hair was thinning and breaking off. My whole face had slipped south. I kept thinking, I'm too young to feel this old! I was 51. I bought line fillers, "magic" makeup, and expensive creams and tried to regain the face I was familiar with.
Today, three years later, I'm no longer shocked when I see myself in a mirror. I'm taking better care of myself, and my stress level has been lowered exponentially. I've added meditation to my daily regimen of face creams and vitamins for healing and acceptance. I still have pain, but I'm able to deal with it a little better. I've learned not to compare myself with another woman my age, and that's a critical point we should all strive for in order to accept ourselves and have inner peace.
I can look in the mirror today and I see my familiar face again, along with the indelible markings of a life lived.