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Can I Still Carry a Cute Trapper Keeper?

It seems to be inevitable, really.

Recently, my stepdaughter heard Yale mentioned on TV. 

“What’s Yale?” She asked me.

“Well, Yale is a really good college. It’s one of those colleges you want to go to if you’re going to be a doctor or lawyer,” I answered.

“Oh, so really smart people go there?” she asked.

“Yes, usually. You could go to Yale, if you wanted.” I smiled.

“No, thanks. I just want to be a mommy.” She twirled her hair. (No, she really did.)

“Well, you know there are lots of mommies that are mommies and do other things, like college and working,” I countered.

“Yeah, that’s okay. I just want to stay at home with my kids. I don’t want to work or anything,” she confirmed.


There the conversation paused, because it was at that point I learned (unfortunately) that I was out of all stomach acid reducing medication in my home had mysteriously misplaced itself. 

This conversation sparked more thought that she’ll ever know. You can’t for one minute tell me that woman at home vs. woman at work (with the exception of Ivanka) isn’t a learned behavior. The majority of her time and adult influences are not spent or gained at our house. Without trying to sound snide, draw your own conclusions.

Husband: “So, do you want me to get out of the Army, or do you want to have another baby?”

Me: “I thought you were going to get out of the Army anyway.”

Husband: “I just think it’s more responsible if we’re going to have another baby, if I stay in and retire.”

Me: “You’re the one that brought having another baby to the table, and I got onboard. Now I have to choose?”

Husband: “Well, maybe you need to start looking at getting your degree again, so I we can have the baby and I don’t have to go on any more deployments.”

Yeah, you don’t need three box tops for the decoder ring to figure out the underlying meaning in that conversation. 

So it was decided. It seems inevitable for so many reasons ... we want to have another baby. I want to make my husband proud. I want to be a financial supporting partner in this family, rather than being the “wife that works.” I want my daughter to look at me and see me as a role model because of accomplishments other than the uterine assembly line variety. I want my sons to look at our life, and realize that joining an armed service isn’t the be all, end all. Or, if they are going to, that they at least begin through an academy of sorts, rather than at an entrance processing station.

And I really, really want my kids to fill in the bubble on standardized testing that says their parents graduated college. And the true inevitability?

It’s all for them. They deserve everything we can give them, and they deserve our tireless efforts to be the best parents we can be.   

Even if going back to school terrifies me.