Desperately Wanting to Be a Mother

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Desperately Wanting to Be a Mother

Hey everyone, my name is Jamie and I’m twenty years old. For the longest time I can remember I’ve always wanted to be a mother, I have been with my fiancé for six and a half years … When I was fourteen years old we thought that I was pregnant and we were so happy, we were scared but happy. Well we found out that I wasn’t and ever since then we’ve always wanted to be parents, well November 2006 I found out that I was pregnant. I was sooo excited!!! I went home and told me fiancé … we then told our families and they were excited … and then four days later I started having a miscarriage …  I was five weeks and two days … that was the most awful feeling we have ever felt … I was depressed and very angry … we finally got better and four months later in February 2007 I went to the doctor because I thought I had a UTI … he came back and told me that I was pregnant … oh I was scared, happy, and upset all at the same time … he told me and I started bawling … I went home and told my fiancé and of course he was happy!!!!

I felt like God was finally giving us our miracle. I was at work one day and I started to hurt so I decided to go to my OB just to be sure. I worried all the time … well when I got there I had started bleeding … he tool some blood and wanted me to come back in three day to get some more … those were the longest three days of my life … I went back and he called me later on that afternoon to tell me that I had miscarried again … I thought I was going to die … and I was soo angry at God … why did he give me the miracles and then just take them right back? I was also five weeks and two days with this pregnancy … so for a while we didn’t try for another baby cause I didn’t want to put myself or my fiancé through that again, but for the last three months we have been trying and we haven’t had any luck … but we will keep trying and one day we will be parents … .