Grateful for My Firstborn Son
He Is Moving Out
Our oldest son gently informed us this week that he is moving out on his own. In most ways this is good news and we are very happy for him. However, I do have a lingering sadness within me. It feels like a door in our lives is closing a little more permanently than when he went to college. Where has the time gone?
When he was born almost twenty-two years ago I learned the true meaning of unconditional love. I remember sitting in the nursery snuggling him in the rocker. I tried so hard to imprint that moment in my mind, never to forget the wonderful feeling of being a new mother. I wanted to protect him from anything that could hurt him. Most of all I wanted him to know how much he was loved.
Love Will Heal
When I was a child my life was full of disruption, pain, and sadness. My mother was very ill all of my life, my parents had a very unhappy marriage that ended in an ugly separation and divorce. Did my parents make mistakes? Absolutely. However, never in my whole life did I doubt that I was loved beyond reason by both of my parents and my wonderful siblings!
As we raised both of our boys, mistakes were made. Tempers were lost. We bumbled along as best we could; our first-born was more of a guinea pig than his brother. He didn’t come with a manual. On the whole, we relied on our common sense and intuition. The only thing we knew undoubtedly was that; we could not love them too much. And, so we did.
Bursting With Pride
Here we are, almost twenty-two years later with an amazing man manifested in front of our eyes. He is still the gentle, sweet soul that I held in my arms in 1986 although he stands 6’4". He is bright, kind, capable, and more than we could have ever hoped for. My husband and I are so proud of him we can’t find the words at times. I am thankful to have a husband who “gets” how I feel about him. I am also thankful for every moment that I have shared with our son, and am so excited about his future.
I still have only one wish. That he KNOWS undoubtedly we will continue to love him forever, no matter what.
Be Kind to Yourself
As parents we can be terribly hard on ourselves. I encourage you to celebrate all that is right with your children. And remember, when it is all said and done, all they really, really want is to feel loved.
I will always be grateful to have him in my life. I wrote out a very long gratitude list about him today, once you start it is hard to stop. I encourage you to take the time to create a list for someone who is important in your life. It will raise your vibration and you will attract more and more joy within that relationship. Try it.
Gratitude is one of the fastest routes to manifesting what you want, more joy.