How to keep things in perspective when raising two young boys
So this is the first time that I have done this (writing online) so please bare with me. I am a stay at home Mum raising my two sons the best way I can but let me tell you I feel as though most days are a struggle. Raising two kids full time is by far the hardest thing I have ever done. My eldest son is almost three and my youngest is five months. I love my boys with all my heart, they are my life, they are my everything. But lately I have been questioning myself as to if I am doing things as well as I can. Trying to establish a good routine (what routine) keep my three year under control, keep my five month old happy (who mind you does not like to sleep much during the day), trying to keep the house clean, trying to cook healthy meals that all of us enjoy, doing the shopping, it may not sound like much to some but wow, I do struggle. I feel a sense a guilt lately as I feel as though I am not spending as much time with my three year old as I would like to as I have to tend to my five month old quite a lot for feeds, bum changes etc. I am sort of thinking that maybe I should put my three year old in some sort of childcare just so that he can play with other children and not be told to be quiet 10 times a day (as I am trying to get the baby to sleep).
I often think that it would be great to be able to stay awake for days on end just so that I can get everything done.
Once the children are in bed at night and I have time to reflect on my day I think, how hard is it? It cant be that hard…. but when you are in the moment with one child being naughty, one child crying because of a pooey nappy and hungry, the washing machine is beeping as that load has finished it can get all a bit much. All I can do is breathand somehow I get there, I just hope that my children are happyas I am trying my best.