It’s the battle, a constant gut wrenching tug of war that every working mother must face. You’re trying to find the perfect balance, trying to make your demanding boss happy and thrive in a business you love while being the best mother you can be.

Is it possible to do it all? Yes it’s possible, but sometimes it just ain’t pretty. I feel that I am just barely doing it all … and doing none of it with 100 percent success.

Perhaps many of you can relate to my situation no matter what your job. I am a full time news reporter and anchor for a television station in a medium size market. I have worked by rear end off to get where I am today and I’m proud of the news stories I produce.

I think I’m good at my job, but for the first time in my life I am finding it less than rewarding. Eight months ago, my husband of ten years and I welcomed our second child. Now we have two handsome boys. Our first is just completing kindergarten.

I am happy with my life, except I feel like I am missing out on what is most important, my family. My hubby and I now grumble at each other over who will change the next dirty diaper … or something as simple as who forgot to put a new garbage bag back in the can after taking out the trash.

I work weekend nights, which is especially tough on my husband who is Mr. Mom during that time, and my weeks are full of to do lists that I can almost never complete. On top of that I have my News Director boss calling me on my off days to ask about a lead on a story I’ve been chasing down or a contact I have who could provide information on a breaking news story TONIGHT (he seems not to notice the crying baby in the background whose sight I have now vanished from.)

UGH! There is not enough time in the day! Although I often dream about giving up this career I’ve worked so hard to excel in… Because my kids and my husband are the most important things in my life, but could I ever really be fulfilled as a full time stay-at-home mom?

If you’re reading this article in hopes of finding some pearls of wisdom, an answer to the question should I continue to work or stay at home, I’m sorry to disappoint. I don’t have the answers! After all I am struggling with the same issues … we’re at a crossroads where we must decide which path to choose. I hope each of us can take true stock of our lives and have the guts to barrel down the road that will lead us to true happiness.

Take time to examine, take time to dream, and summon the courage you need to look back on your life twenty years from now and say I lived a life fulfilled.