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Fourteen days till I’m laid off for the second time in a year, exactly the same date too! (Or a day apart, but who cares?) 2009 was a really tough year. My self-esteem took a huge hit during my first lay off and I was literally crippled-(at least) mentally and emotionally. It was also my first year of marriage, what a welcome to married bliss. My husband was super supportive, enduring bursts of tears, anger, and pity on an almost daily basis. I had never felt such self-doubt and so timid.

After two months of licking my wounds, I got back into stalking a few websites and kept applying for jobs, daily, weekly. I got a part-time job that paid minimum wage, but I was not about to complain. It was better than nothing. A few months later, I got another part-time job and some interviews for full-time, which boosted my self-esteem and made me feel wanted again. How I longed for that interrogation that gave me the opportunity to sell myself like crazy. Though I was very close, I wasn’t ‘the one’ (they were looking for), but I wasn’t moved, I was grateful.

For the past nine months, I’ve been juggling two part-time jobs and decided to take on volunteering as well.

Now, I’m back here again, but it’s 2010. Am I afraid? Definitely. Will I give in to this fear? No. I am ready. I wake up every morning and say I am ready for whatever opportunities come my way. I will continue to dream and to focus on accomplishing my goals. I will be bold. I will be positive. And I know eventually, someday, someone (i.e. an employer) will want me again.

 I am ready whenever you are.

Note: At the time the author posted this, she had obtained part-time employment is still juggling two part-time jobs and volunteering and is now considering going back school. She continues to stay positive.